He knows it all.

   He knows it all.

   When we're confused and can't figure out why God is doing what He is doing- we need to trust Him. We need to surrender to His plans, and lay down our plans. It is not easy; but God can't lead until we allow Him.

   When we got back from the Philippines, we had no idea what was next, other than my parents knew our calling was still missions. Our house in Texas was still on the market, and had been since mid April of 2013. Payments still had to be made on the house, and God provided EVERY single payment while my dad has not had a job. But come February, the house still hadn't sold, and God still hadn't opened new doors for us, as far as what was next.

   So we were waiting.. still. Waiting isn't easy. The enemy really messed with me during this time, and tried to discourage me. Why did the Lord make us give up our old life, sell half of our stuff, and have us live a life of COMPLETE dependence upon Him!? And on top of that, WHY hasn't our house sold? If He opened every door for us to fix it up and put it on the market last spring, why is He allowing it to take so long to sell? And why isn't He showing us what the next step is?

   I relearned something.. God has His own timing. He doesn't always tell us what is next. He makes us wait. It's really for our good though; we just don't always see it that way. At least, I don't always see it that way!

   I had to come to a place of complete surrender again.. "Lord, my life is yours. Our life is yours. I trust you, even though none of this makes sense to me right now."

   I've had to come back to a place where I'm choosing to put my trust in Christ. If I don't get my old "comfortable life" back; will I be happy? You know what? Yes. Yes, I will be. Because I was reminded that there is nothing more rewarding than being called by Christ and getting to actually live out what He has called you to! I was made to glorify God, and that means I need to give up my own desires to live for His! He's faithful to provide; He has always provided for me, who am I, to think that He won't continue to!

   So all this to say... shortly after all this went on; we got a contract on our house. It closed last week! It's sold! It took almost exactly a year. But it's one more step along! God has a plan, and He's slowly revealing it.

   I truly believe He's giving us this time up here in St. Louis to catch up on school, and settle for a little bit.

   We still don't have exact details on what's next, but we have ideas. The Lord will show us in His own timing... There are days when I just want to know NOW, but.. the Lord knows. He will reveal when it's His timing. Until then.. more waiting. And trusting. :)